The first 36 hours

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It's a Girl!!!!!!!

More to follow....Blake Lucille Pulliam was born March 16 at 9:10 pm. 7lbs.13oz and 191/2" of perfection! We are healthy and so in love.

38 Weeks!!!

Could be any day now! With the flu having made its rounds through all of us, I'm just feeling better today, still congested and bad cough but the yuckiest part seems to have passed. After lots of hours spent over the last week at the hospital including one exhausting night, all of the non-stress test and blood pressure test numbers have ended in the healthy zone. I have another one tomorrow after my regular doctor's appointment, hopefully that will be the last before we meet this new little one. Fortunately for me my mom was able to make a last minute trip down on Sunday so I could kick this bug asap. Literally couldn't have done it without her here. Sooooooo hopefully the next post will be sharing our happy news!

Home Stretch

This is the month we've all been waiting for. Some days it feels like it's going to take forever and other days I can't believe it's right around the corner. Without going into any detail, we have a lot up in the air right now so it's keeping me somewhat distracted from obsessing over baby's arrival. I'm trying to find lots of things for us to do to keep the kids busy and life fun for them before it's slows wwwwaaaaayyyy down for a couple months. I feel pretty good but have some very uncomfortable/painful moments almost everyday. I'm hoping that all this "work" ahead of time will make for a short labor, one can dream right? We'll keep you all posted

Grateful Heart

Today we were incredibly blessed by friends. We had a delicious soup dropped off, cash sent in the mail and a gift basket with a gift card included. I feel so spoiled today and encouraged for tomorrow, although a little nervous. I am excited for the Vendor Showcase but "selling" is definitely not my strong suit, but that's okay because Cotton Candy sells itself, right?! Baby d-day is rapidly approaching and the closer it gets the more consumed I get with wondering about "shim". What will you look like, will you be like your brother or your sister, will you be a good sleeper, how will nursing go, will the epidural work this time, will you like to be outside like your siblings, what will your name be, how will I do with three, will I be sad to not be pregnant ever again, will daddy really cut the cord this time, who will deliver you, will labor be long or quick, will it be during the day or night, and much much more...The one thing I do know is that your birthday has already been determined and that we will welcome you with overflowing hearts and utter joy. In just a couple days we will be at 35 weeks and I have no idea where the time has gone and can't believe we get to meet this little one so soon, yay!!!!!!!!!!

About 33 Weeks

...and fully in countdown mode!!!! After a sweet baby mint shower and a visit from my mom and sister, I feel ready. Well let me clarify; ready in terms of being organized and room prepared for baby, just waiting to put the car seat in. Also physically ready to be done being pregnant. I love every single little wiggle in my belly, but unfortunately at this stage for me that does not make up for the discomfort in doing my "daily chores" and keeping up with two little ones. I'm realizing just how close in age these three will be and sometimes it totally freaks me out. Emotionally I'm not really sure if I feel ready for the new addition. So incredibly excited to meet "shim" just feeling a mixed bag of worry and anticipation for the shift in our family. I was comforted last weekend after watching squishy love Brody Blake that the kids will be incredible with baby Trio. Elle is 100% obsessed with Brody and it warmed my heart to see how much she loved having him here and is so enthralled with him any other time we see him. Rylan even said, "...look at his cute little ear mama..." We already don't sleep all night so I'm not concerned about that either. I did the same thing with Elle-feeling like I'll have to divide my heart and mentally I know that's not the case-somewhere in the short distance from brain to heart it's getting all mixed up again. On another note, I am pretty darn sure this is the last baby I will carry. I have gotten so many colds this pregnancy and with Kenny's ridiculous lack of having a work schedule I just don't think I am up for doing this again. I feel much more peace about being done now than I did a few weeks ago. This feels right for our family. If the opportunity falls into place to adopt in the future we are still open to that. After a night of false labor and my lack of ability to really let things go, we are feeling like we have made a decision that is best. I am so grateful for all the Costco trips and dinners Amy has provided and all the dinner dates Rylan has had at the Blakes, seriously could NOT have gotten through the last couple weeks without your help. I hope you know how much you have given me through you generous acts. Also having my mom and sister here last week was awesome because I got through my baby list and now should baby come early, we are set! Thank you G-ma Kim for babysitting in a couple weeks for the craft fair and willing to come in the middle of the night or day when Trio comes...Blessed to have friends near that are helping out this sick and tired mama!

Last baby?

This is the great debate...To say I'm torn is an understatement. It's hard to imagine these being the last few weeks of my entire life that I will feel a little wiggle babe growing inside my belly, but being completely honest, most days have been challenging physically, mentally, and sometimes both. I will freely admit I dwell on and over think things far too often. I am borderline obessesed with the it, like I have to have a decision made the second I walk out of the hospital new baby in tow. As much as I like the "idea" of a large family, I'm not sure we are those people. I don't necessarily feel done but I am much much more open to it now then right after Elle was born, although I do remember saying during or right after delivery "...I AM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN!!!!!!!!...", yet here we are again and now I find myself undecided, maybe if the labor and delivery included pain relief and baby did not have to have light treatment for jaundice and we fell into a fortune, and Kenny had a regular work schedule, and at least one was in school, and and and....see what I mean. How will I ever decide??? I guess ultimately it is out of my hands because like this baby, if there is another Pulliam meant to be in this world from my womb, it's gonna happen prepared, planned, "prevented" or not...I guess I'll leave it at this, we will revisit this topic next year. I've told myself however many children we have when I'm thirty, that's all we'll have. So when December 11,2012 comes, the eve of my 31st birthday, the last day of being 30- I'll have made a decision, either I will be pregnant or Kenny will be headed to the doctor :)

January 2011

Random Thoughts

Cotton Candy is off to a great start for 2011 and I'm excited to see what this year will bring for the business. Baby is growing right on track and everything is going well but growing more anxious by the day to meet this little one. Kenny is still on the job hunt for all of us to move onto bigger and better things. Although we do have some wonderful people in our lives here and it will be sad to leave we just really want to provide something other than a small town life for our family. Having both grown up in isolated small towns, it's just not how we see life for our family. I had a great chat with an old friend today it was so refreshing to feel like a "girl" and not just a mom. Not that being a mom is not the most amazing thing ever, it was just nice to share with another woman and be able to support one another in life, nothing huge just life. Rylan and Elle are really developing a love and care for each other and it's a privilege to watch and I hope I am helping to foster a healthy and good relationship between the two. I know just in time for our family dynamics to shift right?! Funny how as your family changes, your priorities and plans change with each new member. Last random thought, Elle is exactly the age Rylan was when we brought her home, crazy how fast that has gone and how much he has changed in her short little lifetime. He seems so grown up compared to then yet it feels like she was just a baby we were learning about and getting to know. Now just 10 weeks away we'll have another baby to get to know and I'm sure Elle will seem like such a big girl when we bring baby home. Sad how incredibly fast it goes....