Last baby?

This is the great debate...To say I'm torn is an understatement. It's hard to imagine these being the last few weeks of my entire life that I will feel a little wiggle babe growing inside my belly, but being completely honest, most days have been challenging physically, mentally, and sometimes both. I will freely admit I dwell on and over think things far too often. I am borderline obessesed with the it, like I have to have a decision made the second I walk out of the hospital new baby in tow. As much as I like the "idea" of a large family, I'm not sure we are those people. I don't necessarily feel done but I am much much more open to it now then right after Elle was born, although I do remember saying during or right after delivery "...I AM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN!!!!!!!!...", yet here we are again and now I find myself undecided, maybe if the labor and delivery included pain relief and baby did not have to have light treatment for jaundice and we fell into a fortune, and Kenny had a regular work schedule, and at least one was in school, and and and....see what I mean. How will I ever decide??? I guess ultimately it is out of my hands because like this baby, if there is another Pulliam meant to be in this world from my womb, it's gonna happen prepared, planned, "prevented" or not...I guess I'll leave it at this, we will revisit this topic next year. I've told myself however many children we have when I'm thirty, that's all we'll have. So when December 11,2012 comes, the eve of my 31st birthday, the last day of being 30- I'll have made a decision, either I will be pregnant or Kenny will be headed to the doctor :)

January 2011

Random Thoughts

Cotton Candy is off to a great start for 2011 and I'm excited to see what this year will bring for the business. Baby is growing right on track and everything is going well but growing more anxious by the day to meet this little one. Kenny is still on the job hunt for all of us to move onto bigger and better things. Although we do have some wonderful people in our lives here and it will be sad to leave we just really want to provide something other than a small town life for our family. Having both grown up in isolated small towns, it's just not how we see life for our family. I had a great chat with an old friend today it was so refreshing to feel like a "girl" and not just a mom. Not that being a mom is not the most amazing thing ever, it was just nice to share with another woman and be able to support one another in life, nothing huge just life. Rylan and Elle are really developing a love and care for each other and it's a privilege to watch and I hope I am helping to foster a healthy and good relationship between the two. I know just in time for our family dynamics to shift right?! Funny how as your family changes, your priorities and plans change with each new member. Last random thought, Elle is exactly the age Rylan was when we brought her home, crazy how fast that has gone and how much he has changed in her short little lifetime. He seems so grown up compared to then yet it feels like she was just a baby we were learning about and getting to know. Now just 10 weeks away we'll have another baby to get to know and I'm sure Elle will seem like such a big girl when we bring baby home. Sad how incredibly fast it goes....

We are done!

We had a great quick trip to SF. To quote Rylan's doctor, "...you guys have done everything technologically possible for him...there is no target area left..." Best news we've heard in awhile :) So now any future treatments will be up to him. Even THE top specialist for this treatment gave us the all clear. We are so grateful to Dr. Cordoro for everything she has done and with such great care. She even said she felt like a friend of the family and hopes to keep in touch. The next day we met up with Rylan's "doctor office friend" Maddox (a sweet little boy whose family we've gotten to know over the last year of treatments as he was always on the schedule right before us). We had a super fun time at the Exploratorium with them and then with about a thousand pounds lifted off our shoulders headed home. Thank you to all our friends and family that have checked in on us after treatments, prayed, stayed at the house, given special treats, and much more. Your support and encouragement through this chapter of our lives was so appreciated. For 2 1/2 years we have made this trip and we are so so so so so so glad to put this behind us.

Last Trip to UCSF????

Hopefully tomorrow will be our last trip to UCSF for a long long time. We'll be sure to let you know this weekend what we find out. I feel like I want to complain but as I sit here my little babe is wiggling in my belly reminding me that life is good. On that note, I had my glucose test this morning and go to the doctor for my check up and rho gam shot next Wednesday, all that means delivery day is rapidly approaching :) I am excited about so many things. I was hoping Kenny and I could get in a night away before baby trio comes but I guess we'll have to save it for another time. We had an incredible Christmas and mellow New Years. I'll post some pictures next week. Well at least one is awake and desperately needs me at this precise moment or the world may just fall apart. Til the weekend...