Grateful Heart

Today we were incredibly blessed by friends. We had a delicious soup dropped off, cash sent in the mail and a gift basket with a gift card included. I feel so spoiled today and encouraged for tomorrow, although a little nervous. I am excited for the Vendor Showcase but "selling" is definitely not my strong suit, but that's okay because Cotton Candy sells itself, right?! Baby d-day is rapidly approaching and the closer it gets the more consumed I get with wondering about "shim". What will you look like, will you be like your brother or your sister, will you be a good sleeper, how will nursing go, will the epidural work this time, will you like to be outside like your siblings, what will your name be, how will I do with three, will I be sad to not be pregnant ever again, will daddy really cut the cord this time, who will deliver you, will labor be long or quick, will it be during the day or night, and much much more...The one thing I do know is that your birthday has already been determined and that we will welcome you with overflowing hearts and utter joy. In just a couple days we will be at 35 weeks and I have no idea where the time has gone and can't believe we get to meet this little one so soon, yay!!!!!!!!!!

About 33 Weeks

...and fully in countdown mode!!!! After a sweet baby mint shower and a visit from my mom and sister, I feel ready. Well let me clarify; ready in terms of being organized and room prepared for baby, just waiting to put the car seat in. Also physically ready to be done being pregnant. I love every single little wiggle in my belly, but unfortunately at this stage for me that does not make up for the discomfort in doing my "daily chores" and keeping up with two little ones. I'm realizing just how close in age these three will be and sometimes it totally freaks me out. Emotionally I'm not really sure if I feel ready for the new addition. So incredibly excited to meet "shim" just feeling a mixed bag of worry and anticipation for the shift in our family. I was comforted last weekend after watching squishy love Brody Blake that the kids will be incredible with baby Trio. Elle is 100% obsessed with Brody and it warmed my heart to see how much she loved having him here and is so enthralled with him any other time we see him. Rylan even said, "...look at his cute little ear mama..." We already don't sleep all night so I'm not concerned about that either. I did the same thing with Elle-feeling like I'll have to divide my heart and mentally I know that's not the case-somewhere in the short distance from brain to heart it's getting all mixed up again. On another note, I am pretty darn sure this is the last baby I will carry. I have gotten so many colds this pregnancy and with Kenny's ridiculous lack of having a work schedule I just don't think I am up for doing this again. I feel much more peace about being done now than I did a few weeks ago. This feels right for our family. If the opportunity falls into place to adopt in the future we are still open to that. After a night of false labor and my lack of ability to really let things go, we are feeling like we have made a decision that is best. I am so grateful for all the Costco trips and dinners Amy has provided and all the dinner dates Rylan has had at the Blakes, seriously could NOT have gotten through the last couple weeks without your help. I hope you know how much you have given me through you generous acts. Also having my mom and sister here last week was awesome because I got through my baby list and now should baby come early, we are set! Thank you G-ma Kim for babysitting in a couple weeks for the craft fair and willing to come in the middle of the night or day when Trio comes...Blessed to have friends near that are helping out this sick and tired mama!